This past month I have been riding waves of fear and anxiety, I got cracked open or activated, and old stories about going broke and being left to starve alone in the streets came pouring out. At the root of these feelings is a fear that I'm not good enough or unlovable. Am I born in the wrong time period, stuck in the shame and despair of being useless, a slave to drudgerous meaningless work that has no purpose, no passion, no future?
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Like a sneaker set the waves comes out of nowhere, the horizon goes dark, and my first impulse is to paddle like my life depends on it and get out of there, far far away and don't look back! This strategy can work in the ocean, but I see these thoughts and feelings are inside me, and wherever I might escape to I will bring these fears and anxiety with me.
Thankfully I have magical, practical, quick and easy tools I can use that gently steer me from panic to calm in minutes. I used a biofeedback app to track my stress and energy before and after these calming practices. My numbers improved significantly immediately and repeatedly, that's Latin for they just work, and work incredibly well! I could feel the difference, I went from freaking out and thinking I'm doomed to feeling calm and at ease, blissing out within minutes. That chaotic antsy horrible feeling passed and I felt relaxed and even excited. I can do anything, I am powerful, my value is infinite! What amazingness will I create today?!?!
I am so so grateful that I have these tools. I have weathered these storms before without any tools, resources, nor guidance, and that sucked big time. Even when the storm passed and I felt better, I was still afraid another panic attack would come out of nowhere and overwhelm me, I was lacking the understanding of how my mind and body work and what to do, basically confused and alone. My prayer is that these tools help and heal anyone who is in that dark place. Reach out, I'm here, love and support are here, you me we I are valuable, needed, and welcome.
A way we could describe the four habits is we’ve fallen out of love and gone to fear. Or in the moment, we’re scared, we’re feeling attacked, not enough, and all of that. So we go to one of these four things in a dysfunctional attempt to try to feel loved, to get our needs met. And the way I was taught to use these tools is start with self, myself and work outward in ever widening circles. So from self to relationship or family, from family to community, town, tribe, village and then outward to state or nation or land and earth. And by building these circles and widening it out, that’s how we build a healthy society, a healthy planet, a healthy earth:
Science or Pseudoscience, what's the difference and why does it matter? Well as I write this a big famous airplane company is having problems with their planes and there are questions about ignoring safety during manufacture. I want to fly in a plane made by people who use science to build a plane that will takeoff fly and land safely and comfortably.
Wikipedia says, "Science is a rigorous, systematic endeavor that builds and organizes knowledge in the form of testable explanations and predictions about the world."
An unbiased honest scientist could have inspected or looked at the planes in question and made predictions about how they would fly or don't. They have tests for the doors or whatever other part is the problem, and had those tests been done they would have hopefully raised concerns and fixed the issue before flight.
So science is a method. We observe something in... (5 videos on medical science. Info on Atom Science.)
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This past month I have been riding waves of fear and anxiety, I got cracked open or activated, and old stories about going broke and being left to starve alone in the streets came pouring out. At the root of these feelings is a fear that I'm not good enough or unlovable. Am I born in the wrong time period, stuck in the shame and despair of being useless, a slave to drudgerous meaningless work that has no purpose, no passion, no future?
A way we could describe the four habits is we’ve fallen out of love and gone to fear. Or 
Science or Pseudoscience, what's the difference and why does it matter? Well as I write this a big famous airplane company is having problems with their planes and there are questions about ignoring safety during manufacture. I want to fly in a plane made by people who use science to build a plane that will takeoff fly and land safely and comfortably.
Stay up at the surface and only option is to fight and beat the other, win-lose which is really lose-lose.
How we ask or don't ask for what we need can make all the difference, there's that saying we get more bees with honey than vinegar. Even more effective than being sweet is being vulnerable, letting people see our struggle, pain, and suffering invites a natural empathetic response (this works with mature people, in the video I talk about a way to deal with immature or triggered reactions).
